Thursday, January 3, 2013

Baby it's cold outside!!!!

In speaking with different people who know way more than I do about running, I have been told over and over that when training for a half marathon best results are achieved when cross training as well. This all makes sense to me however, there is one small problem.... I am not medically cleared to do any of the typical cross training exercises. I can't bike, or swim and it will be awhile before I can even consider those options. M (I don't have permission to use her name yet!)  and I have dedicated ourselves to working out 6 days a week and are trying to come up with alternative cross training options. 

Yesterday M came over and we decided to try to workout to some videos. We weren't really sure what would be the best to do, so we decided to try my accelerated Pilate's video. (Insert sinister laugh here!) So, maybe we should have started with a beginner video, but hey, we gave it our best! I was not as bad as I thought I would be, but I defiantly have lots of room for improvement! This was a 20 min. video and we decided we wanted to do a little more of something different. We pulled out my Cindy Crawford post natal video and did workout A and B. We worked out for a total of 40 minutes and felt satisfied with what we were able to accomplish. Unfortunately both workout videos worked out our already sore legs even more! This morning both of us were walking a little funny! We are still trying to figure out the best cross training exercises to do for now. Any advice would be great!

We decided to head out earlier this morning and started our walking/jogging at 8:30. It was COLD and there was  fine layer of snow on the ground that was slippery. We decided to take a different route and use the bike lane so that our terrain was more clear. We ended up on a sidewalk because the bike lane ended. I have a new appreciation for people who shovel their walks. It makes a HUGE difference when running on  clean sidewalk vs. uneven and slippery snow. M has been keeping track of the time and admitted later that she had accidentally shortened the times we walked, so we ended up jogging a couple times more. It actually seemed like time passed more quickly this way.

I have been thinking a lot about my self doubts. I don't feel like I made as much progress training last year as I would have liked to. I really feel like I want to test myself a little this time around. I know that next week we will already be increasing the length of our jogging. I remember this terrified me last time. So, I have decided that I am going to push myself this week to jog  more quickly than I want to. I have been really happy with how good this feels on my body. Unfortunately the air has been so cold that I have to tie a scarf around my mouth and nose while jogging or else the air burns my lungs way to much. We both realized that it seemed a lot colder today, so I decided to check the temperature on my phone. It was 9 degrees! Yeah, that explains the cold! I have to tell myself that this is going to make me stronger somehow. That if I can do this in super cold weather, pushing myself to go just a little faster, that when the real race comes, I will somehow be tougher!

Today we moved a little more quickly because of the shortened walks and more jogs. We finished up in about 32 min. and when we went out and tracked it we found that once again we covered 2 miles!!! This really excites me! I am very happy that I am able to do this! I know it is little by little, but I feel this is a great start! I am very thankful that M is dedicated to making this goal happen as well, that we have an end date, and the support from lots of friends and family! I know that there will be ups and downs and that is okay. I am just excited to be doing something!

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Well, here we are!!!!

It has been many moons since I last posted about my quest for better health. Last year I had many accomplishments and many set backs while training. I ultimately ended up not being able to continue training on bike or foot due to some health issues. Last year, I had a major surgery that took a significant amount to recover from. I thought I was doing great and begin my training for a 5k. I did complete a 5k, and worked up to riding 22miles on my bike. I was feeling fabulous and though I had my ups and downs with training, I was happy with my progress. Before long I began having some issues from my surgery which I thought I had healed from. It turns out that I had only healed superficially. This caused painful problems that lead to my scar being re-opened and a drain tube put in. This was followed by several months of  having to "pack" the area twice a day.  The newly opened wound caused pain, drainage and enough problems that I was forced to discontinue my workouts. After several months of packing the area the wound would just not heal, add that to the fact that my stoma was prolapsing and what do you get??? ANOTHER surgery!!! This December 4, I went under the knife again for the 8th time in the past 4 years. Once again I had two surgeries. Thanks to many prayers from family and friends, this surgery was not nearly as big as the last set of surgeries last December. I have had a wonderful recovery, and give thanks everyday for my health. In the mist of my health dilemmas, my dear friend gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. One day while lamenting over the fact that we want to be in better shape, we decided to train for a half marathon. I am not sure why this seemed like the best goal to set, but we both felt it would be a fantastic challenging goal that as we worked toward it we would get into better shape.

A little over a week ago I had my post surgery check up with my surgeon. He said things looked great and removed the uncomfortable stitches. I was so happy! I expressed my desire to start exercising and he told me that would be okay as long as I took it slow and didn't overdo it. That night my wound started leaking and by the next day reopening. Dang the fact that my body doesn't like to heal!!!! I was a little concerned but with the holidays I just kept about my normal routine, taking precautions not to tear anything. about 5 days later my bottom started hurting and I realized the wound was getting bigger and was having drainage. I called in, and was told just to try to keep the area dry. I decided I would pack the wound and pray that it would close.

Time was quickly approaching for my Friend and I to start our training. Her parents are leaving for a mission in June and there just so happens to be a half marathon in her home state of Oregon in June. We decided to make the trip a vacation/farewell/run a half marathon type deal. I was nervous to start training for, well, many reasons. There are the obvious reasons that I am nervous about healing properly, then I have that voice in my head reminding me that I am not a runner and training last year was very difficult.

Up until last night I wasn't sure how I felt about all of this. I was sorely tempted to step back and say, maybe not now, maybe I will wait. Then I realized that I had made a commitment to my friend, and I am always good on my word. I know they say that they only real failure is to not try, but I was (still am) afraid to start something that I didn't know if I could finish. All my runner friends may think a half marathon is easy, in fact my brother trained for 3 months and ran  a half marathon in less than 2 hrs!!! But, I am not doing this to impress anyone. I am doing this because darn it, I was told 4 years ago that I should NOT be alive. That there was not physical way my body should have kept going. But here I am ,alive, and for the most part healthy. I CAN do it, I WILL do it! It will be difficult, there will be days when I want to quit, but I will do my part, and give it my best. I won't be the fastest I won't be the strongest but I will give it my all  and in the end, that is what matters.

This morning I woke up with an excitement and determination. I realized I was tired of waiting to be "better" to start, because the reality is I may never be better enough, that is just my reality. But I have decided to not let that stop me. Today was going to be the first of many days of training. I reflected back to last year to when I first started training. I was only able to walk/jog 1/4 mile in 25 min. I knew that I could at least do that. I posted on fb, because I knew the more I shared my goal the more accountable I would be. I realized that today marks 4 weeks from my surgery. It is the first day of the first month of the new year. I thought, "What a great way to start things out!" I was nervous, would I look ridiculous in front of my friend? Will I be able to make it? Well, I am super excited to announce that I did make it, and I think we did pretty well.

We decided to start with c2 5k program, and warmed up with walking for 5min. We then alternated 60 sec. jogging with 90 sec. walking. Guess what? It was cold, a lot of our pathway was covered in snow, but we did it! We were out for 35 min. and were shocked to realized in that time we covered 2 miles!!! I could almost cry out with joy! I am far better off than when I started last year! The jogging felt SOOOO good on my body. I was challenging, but not overwhelming. I know that I will have my set backs, every good goal has them, but for the first day out, I couldn't be more pleased! I am on a workout high right now. I really need your encouragement because it really fuels my desire to prove I will do this.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Consistency is Key!!!!

I have been so hit and miss on posting to this blog. I have to admit that my workouts have been more miss than hit! I had to have a drain put in where my rectum and anus wasremoved, because it hadn't healed properly and kept getting infected. The day after it was put in I was able to go walking, but haven't been out again until today. I have been way too sore. Some days it has even been to painful to do much more than lay down. Walking, sitting and driving have been very uncomfortable to say the least.

With my walk coming up this Saturday, I knew that I needed to get some exercise in this week, so that I would have more stamina. This morning I went out with Ginny and we both felt the consequences of not working out for a week! We were only able to do one interval of jogging and ended up walking the rest of the way. In total we were able to go the full 5  miles in about an hour and 15 min.

It felt great to be back out exercising, and I want to keep it up! Today I meet with my surgeon to see what the next steps are going to be for my recovery. I am seriously praying that I can get the drain out, and that things are healed enough, that we can be done. I have a fear that I will end up with a wound vac. Let's keep our fingers crossed that I will be healed enough....

I feel like I am not building up endurance and stamina as much as I would like to. Obviously consistency would help, but I really want to be able to go farther, faster, and be stronger. I think that I will see what happens today at the Doctors. If they go well, then I am going to be making so serious exercise goals for what I want to accomplish over the summer.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Turn up the heat!!!!

I love warm weather, I don't love running in it! This week has been a little tricky with the weather being so warm. Ginny and I have certainly slowed our pace up so we don't pass out. We really want to make sure that we are getting in 3-4 work outs a week, but don't want to make ourselves sick with the heat. I am really looking forward summer break which is only a week and a half away! We will be able to workout early, before it's too hot, and have a whole day left afterwards!

I ended up having to go in for a C.T. scan today. I have been having some weird problems on the scar where my anus was removed. I needed to drink contrast for the scan, and it has left me feeling really queasy. Needless to say, our workout today was very slow!

We are still averaging about 5 miles a day and are loving the interval program. Some days are better than others, but each day I get out, I feel great that I did!!
I realize that I have waited a long time to post my other blog, and really wanted to share it before now. I have finally finished writing it, and am now editing it. I really want to add pictures, and hopefully will be able to post it soon. My hopes were to share these two blogs and help people to understand what it is like living with crohn's disease. I really want to raise money for the run I am doing in June, and hoped that adding a personal element would make it more "real." The walk is just a few weeks away and I think I have taken too long. If you read this, and are able, I would love if you could support the foundation I am running for and donate to my team. It is really simple and is a wonderful cause. You can log onto the website ccfa.org click on "Taking Steps, Changing Lives" and find my team "Gut's Who???" ANY donation, from $1 up will be such a blessing, and it is tax deductible! Sorry to turn my blog into a fundraiser, I just feel like I needed to get the word out!

Monday, May 7, 2012

WOW!!!!

I have been working on another blog since I started this one. It is the story of living with my disease for the past twelve years. I started it because with the walk I am doing for crohn's and colitis they keep saying to share my story and help people become more aware of what life is like with these diseases. I was a little nervous at first, because this is a really personal story to me. I have been scared to share it, thinking that I would sound like I was complaining or look weak and I didn't want anyone to think less of me. I know that sounds silly but it is true. There are days where I have written for hours, then gotten to a especially emotional part, and not been able to return to writing for days. I didn't expect the journey of writing this to be so emotional, but it really has been. I still have a little more to write, and I have decided to add pictures. Not all of these pictures will be pretty, but this hasn't been a pretty disease. I hope you will all read my blog when I post it, which will probably next week.

 The point of this is that as I have been writing this other blog, I have realized that it has been a REALLY long time since I have felt as healthy as I do now. I had thought that these past three years had been rough because of all of my surgeries. Now as I look back, I see that it has been much longer than that. I am so thankful to be where I am today. I am thankful I can run after my children and actually keep up with them. I can park far away and not feel too weak to walk all the way into the store. I don't take for granted each day of life that I have and I feel so blessed to be where I am. I wouldn't change my journey, it has helped me to cherish each day. Every day of life that I have is a gift. Every day that I am able to get out and exercise is a huge accomplishment. I know that there have been times that I have felt frustrated that I haven't made more progress faster. I have been discouraged. But I have come to appreciate where I have come from, where I am now, and where I want to be in the future. These past few months have helped to boost my self esteem. I feel stronger, healthier, and more capable. I know this probably sounds super cheesy, but I really wanted to express how grateful I am for where I am today. I appreciate all the love and support I get from all of you.

Yesterday David and I decided to go on a nice Sunday walk as a family. I told David I would really like to show him where Ginny and I walk. We decided that we would go as far as the children could and then return home. I was so impressed with my cute children. They certianly got tired at different points in the walk, but they all went the whole way. We clocked it at and was 5.3 miles!!! It was very fun and leisurly.

Today I felt whimpy. As Ginny and I started our walk/jog I was having a hard time with my breathing. I felt weak. We walk/jogged for 2.5 miles then I needed to walk. I am not sure why I felt so worn out. We decided to just finish walking. We are pretty fast walkers, and it felt really good to be out. As we were approching my house, we were almost at 5.5 miles. We decided to continue on a little longer. We went until we had gone 6 miles and thought it was really funny that in walking most of the time we went a mile farther, and finished in 5 minutes less time!!!

Time out: 1hr. 24 min.
Distance covered: 6 miles

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Bright and early

Yesterday was a beautiful day for walking! It was the day of our program that Ginny and I are suppose to do an easy walk. We felt good and decided to walk our full route which is 5 miles. We were able to keep a really great steady pace and the whole walk felt wonderful.

This morning we met at 7 (yes 7:00 Saturday morning!) and only had to go 2.5 miles. It was really cold when we started and the cold air immediately affected my lungs. Luckily it warmed up pretty quickly and it wasn't too long before I felt just fine. I was a beautiful morning and I was really happy to be up enjoying it. We walk/jogged for 2.5 miles then walked another mile to cool down. Afterward our muscles were stiff  which I attributed to the cold weather.

I am really liking this training program. Ginny and I agree that it makes workouts very do-able. In fact we were talking about how 3 miles were now a no brainer, and were realizing how far we had come in these past few months. I love the addition of biking  and am thinking I really want to add some abdominal work in. That is the physical area I need the most work, and since I am doing cardio 6 times a week, maybe abdominal workouts would actually work!!! I do get a little nervous that I am going to do something weird to my stoma, but Dr. Kim has given me the go ahead, so I might as well try.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

I'm Back!!!!!

I realize it has been a really long time since I last posted. Our home computer totally crashed and I just never made it to another computer to update. Our computer has been restored!!!

A lot has happened since I last posted. Ginny and I trained with "Couch to 5K" until it had us running 25 min. each day and then we changed programs. We are now doing interval training. I am certainly not the speediest runner and average 11-12 minute miles, but I feel so much stronger. I have come to understand my body a lot better and know that I can't eat too close to jogging because that is what causes my stomach cramping. I now know that I do a lot better with interval running than I do with distance running. I have built up leg muscles and am never as sore as when I started. I am pleased to announce that I have built up some cute little leg muscles too!!! I have really enjoyed the fact that I feel more healthy. I have more energy and ability to run around and play with my children. I really feel great!!

Two weeks ago my stake held a 5k and I participated. I ran my first 5k in 35min. I felt great afterwards!! Our new interval program has us running 4 days a week. On Monday and Wednesday Ginny and I will jog/walk for about 3 miles. Then we cool off with walking 2-4 more miles. Then on Friday we walk 3 miles at an easy pace and Saturday the program has us change the distance we go. Last week it was 5 miles walk/jogging, this week it is only 3 miles, next week 6miles. We are building up our distance and strength. We started at a pace of a 12 min. mile which meant we would jog 2 min. walk 1, jog 2 walk 1. We decided to try for a steady 11 minute mile and now alternate 2.5 min. jog with 1 min walk. I really am liking this program so far.

I haven't gotten to the place where running is my favorite, but I really enjoy the changes I am seeing in my ability and health. Last week my brother Jacob ran his first half marathon. Just being there to support him, really inspired me. I really want to work myself up to that kind of distance. I think it is a HUGE accomplishment and want to work towards that.

I also found out that the walk for Crohn's and Colitis is not a 5k, but a simple one miler. I am not sure where my confusion came in, but I have to say I am really happy that I thought it was a 5k, because I don't know if I would have started the training I did otherwise. I look back to where I started and am so thankful I started. A 5k now seems like something simple that I know I can do! I like that feeling!!!

Ginny and I have also added biking into our workout routine. We bike on Tuesday and Thursday. I have to tell you that biking definitely comes much more naturally to me, In just a few bike rides I am up to 20- mile rides each time we go out! I love biking. It has been really fun to cross-train with something I feel  that I am better at.

I am looking at marathons that I might like to do. I thought maybe I could move up to a 10k then a half marathon. I don't know, I am still thinking about it.